Nothing interests me anymore. I don’t want to do anything but sleep and maybe watch TV. I try to make myself read, but can barely get one page into anything I attempt. I haven’t written anything in ages and I feel like a total worthless slacker. I find it hard to convince myself to do anything once I get home from work, unless I can guarantee I’m going to be “productive.” Right now, that is what I feel is standing in my way. The constant urge to feel like I am accomplishing something and actually making progress towards a goal. Anything that doesn’t do that isn’t worth my time.
And then again… what am I working towards? What would make me feel productive and are any of my goals even reasonable? Not “reasonable” as in “can I achieve them” but as in “do I want to achieve them.” It feels like we are all just chugging away in a deep hole and I’m having trouble figuring out what the point of it is.