Does that word describe what I’m feeling right now? I don’t think so, because I just Googled it and it doesn’t mean what I thought it meant.
Stagnent is probably better. I just feel blah, like nothing has changed lately, for way too long. Remember back in college – the year was broken up into four parts. Fall semester, winter break, spring semester, and then summer. Everything had a start and an end. But now, I feel like I’ve been living the same stuff day in and day out since like, May. Which, now that I say it, isn’t even that long. But the “no end in sight” element makes it feel like an eternity.
I’m looking forward to things – like buying a condo and going to grad school. But everything I am looking forward to is happening on an unknown timeframe.
I started reading a book yesterday, Happier at Home by Gretchen Rubin. I liked her Happiness Project when I read it two years ago, but now the ideas are started to fade away. Hopefully it reminds me to just be happy and stopping thinking about what’s next… because that will make for a long, sad life. Especially when I’m old and only think about death.